trip

I tried Salvia last night. I think it was x15 strength, if you are interested. Some friends had had a little a while back, and it really interested me. A completely legal trip in which you potentially lose your mind for a few minutes. People have reported space and time travel, encounters with ethereal creatures, odd body sensations and all sorts of other experience - this drug is a powerful hallucinogenic. Here, watch this Youtube clip of a fellow tripping hard:



I'm going to try and describe what it felt like for me.

Firstly, to be clear, I fucking hated it. Although, actually, the first hit was really nice, I loved the feeling that my skin was being unlaced all down my left side in lots of different places - i know this doesn't sound pleasant, but it was cool because everything still looked ok at this point- and everything felt one-dimensional in a bizarre textured way. So, thinks I, I'll have another wee go!

Dude. I have never experienced anything like this. I was completely removed my normal consciousness, and felt like I got stuck in this crazy loop. I somehow ended up on my hands and knees on the floor when I started off on the couch on the other side of the table. I wasn't in that room anymore, I felt totally disassociated. There was this impression of lots of brightly coloured halo-ish outlines around all I could see, and everything felt loud even though there was no specific noise. Every few seconds, it would change very slightly by sort of folding over on itself and me, sort of an enveloping staticy experience, which started off sort of interesting. Then it started to change in frequency, and become more random, and every time it changed I had this really uncomfortable feeling in my head. I started to feel like I was stuck and that I could never come back, that this was going to be my life and that it might not ever end. I tried to think about what I wanted to go back to, but it didn't feel real anymore either, I couldn't quite get my head around where I was, who I was with, how long I had been there, nothing felt familiar at all. The visual hallucination was all I could see, I had no concept of the room I was in or who I was with until I started to come out of it. I remember a feeling of intense relief when it started to ease up because then I knew I wasn't really stuck, and things started to get more familiar again. It felt like it lasted forever, and that I wouldn't be able to 'get back', that a switch had flicked, I'd fucked up and I was stuck there - the problem was, even when I started to 'get back' again, I wasn't sure that what I thought I was getting back to was even real. Thoroughly unsettling.

The whole thing just made me feel really horrible on the whole, and I fully intend to never ever touch the stuff again. Anyway. I can't believe this shit is legal and weed isn't!


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• Yes, I know, I have been very neglectful of this blog, and I am truly sorry. Not a lot been happening, except work and railway really.